tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057267755003793057.post4980984941509694024..comments2008-11-11T11:34:19.159-08:00Comments on The Emoblopedia: Emoblopedia: Fertility TreatmentsLollipop Goldsteinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01020874415819057995noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057267755003793057.post-48977498108282189662007-04-24T21:08:00.000-07:002007-04-24T21:08:00.000-07:00FIrst and Only IVF Attempt and LossI'm sitting her...FIrst and Only IVF Attempt and Loss<BR/><BR/>I'm sitting here, unable to sleep for nearly 48 hours now- I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow at 10, but it will only confirm what I already know- I lost all three embryos and there won't be another chance for a number of reasons...we had 15 eggs retrieved, 10 fertilized, 5 survived to day 3, they implanted 3 of the 5 and were going to freeze the other two once they hit the blastocyte stage (today) but they also "died." <BR/><BR/>Last night I began bleeding and it has gone on and off all day, not steadily bleeding, but expelling in clots...at first, the doctor said not to worry, but as the day went on, he phoned me and said he feels just as badly as me (I believe he feels bad, but he can't possibly begin to feel what I am- I can't believe it- they were just embryos, right?) My doctor also said that he will confirm tomorrow that the bleeding is from the uterus and not from my injection site- he said it was really early to be bleeding so quickly, but I already know why I'm bleeding...I am surprised at the pain that I've been feeling- in my heart, not my body...I thought I'd be OK either way- we said that it would be "God's will," whether the baby(ies) implanted or not, but my heart is breaking and I don't know how to get past it...thanks for listening...ReneeReneehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16278513727365148082noreply@blogger.com